Doing much better these days...

Well... after "checking in" and reading my past blogs, I feel like I need to update how we have been since Chase's diabetes diagnosis. As much as I wish I could write that it was not true - it's not the case. BUT... he is doing good. And I mean not only good - but fantastic!!! He was put on a insulin pump in late March. I was struggling to give my baby these piece of crap shots 3-4 times a day. He's little - he doesn't understand. He would tell me "no" and "bad momma"... Crap - it's gonna make me cry remembering that. But the good news is, that we are no longer doing that. He is on a wonderful little device that is delivering insulin to him without the needles. Now, he still gets his fingers poked 4 times a day - no matter what. But no more shots!!! I have to put a new infusion site in once every 3 days. But it is really simple, and he does great. He doesn't fight me, he doesn't flinch. He is a very brave little boy - and I should take some lessons from him! I could write a book on it - but the main thing is that HE is living his life the same that he was before diabetes. He is a wild and mischevious little boy - a typical toddler... And we love it...
Rylie, my sweet girl is now 5 yrs old, reading like a champ, being a ballerina, and will start kindergarten in late August. She is signed on for soccer again - maybe she will be into it a bit more this season. But she is doing great and continues to the best big sister to Chase and the best little helper to mommy and of course, she is always Daddy's princess!!! Love that girl to pieces...
Matt is doing great. D&D Tire sold recently, and Matt just started a new position in the newly combined companies. So hopefully it all turns out really well for him - and us as a family.
Me... I'm getting better. I am learning to forgive so to speak. I do get angry with some of the past issues involving my kids health. It can bring me down easily if I let it. I am trying to find the balance. I'm improving - still have a ways to go. But I love my family to ends of the Earth - and there is nowhere I else I'd rather be - except the spa getting a facial and a massage... :)
I hope that this is a bit easier to read and let's you all know that we are doing much better since the last post. I had a hard time reading it - very raw and real feelings I was having. It was a very tramautic time - it still stings me pretty hard when I think back on it...
love to all...
The Fernley clan...